Pieces of me
The Memories feature on Facebook reminded me that two years ago, I left my job at Calvary to take over the reigns at Love INC. Though Love INC is now drawing to a close, that career shift did two very important things in my life: put me in a period of intense pruning and growth, and marked the end of a decade long career in Christian radio.
Leaving radio was one of the harder things I've had to do in my professional journey. I somehow figured that it would reappear in my future, but now two years later, that is yet to happen. It's a piece of me that may turn into a memory and nothing more.
Though a piece of me might have been displaced, a new one formed in its absence. My increasingly strong drive to see non-profits collaborate effectively, has now become a big part of my journey. I'm very thankful that doors have opened for me at The Tijeras Foundation, and I'm eager to start working with a small but mighty team of leaders who want to see Albuquerque transformed.
There are many pieces that come together to form the picture of who I am: wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend. The list is pretty exhaustive, and every relationship, talent and experience contributes to what make me me.
I've learned throughout the years, that there are pieces of me so intertwined it would be ludicrous to try to operate my life in compartments. My role as a wife and mother absolutely impacts my career decisions, and vise versa. My faith is so much a part of me that no piece operates without it.
Sometimes my fractured vision can lead to confusion and frustration. I often don't "get it" or simply forget that my temporary situations account for a very small sliver of my life. It's easy to get waylaid by unmet expectations or unwanted challenges. Forgetting the truth that I'm the sum of my pieces can take me down a road of self pity.
When I'm able to re-focus my sights on the truth of the wholeness of how God made me, the picture becomes much clearer. Even the ugly, bent or smudged pieces of my life fit into the frame in a beautiful and complex way. So, whether the Lord adds, subtracts or rearranges my pieces, I'm thankful that He sees the whole picture, complete and full of purpose.